My Champion

My high spirits after seeing Hitch died the moment i walked into the coffee shop. As if braving the cold during our walk from the car to the place wasn't bad enough, as soon as i sat down, i realised that there were some "ugly" views around. 4 views to be exact...looking gorgeous and sitting at the table next to us...and totally devastating for me.

I thought i'd learnt to control my feeling already, but obviously not... as i squirmed uncomfortably in my chair and tried to keep my eyes averted. 4 years of high school and years of uni has taught me one thing, to steer wayyy clear of them but it hasn't taught me how to forget...

I will never forget what it was like to be friends with them, to be hurt by them, to be talked about by them or ditched by them...it was like a whirlpool that i just couldn't get out of. Everytime i thought i have already put everything behind me, bam i see them and it all comes back and it still hurts...

still even when my thoughts were dark, there was a ray of sunshine...someone said "don't worry, i will defend you. If they talk bad about you, i will kick their ass". i will never be able to put properly into words how that made me feel. To know that someone was with me, that someone was willing to defend me, and they would do that because i was me.... it was nice...

I know you didn't want me to write this becky, but i still felt the need to say just how much i appreciate having you in my life. Thank you, and this is dedicated to you.