i think sometimes we would all like to delude ourselves into thinking that we can less about a person than we actually do for fear of the consequence of knowing just how much they affect you. but if they are the first person you turn to when you are scared and unsure, if they are the person you turn to when you need support, if only they can make you smile and laugh when you are feeling down, when their attempt to cheer you up were lame and yet you still feel 100% times better, when one word of advice and or chiding from them gives you the energy to go on then it's probably safe to say that you like them more than you would like to admit. when you do find that person, don't be afraid to latch onto them like a rock. because the support and strength you get from them is worth the fear. and if they take the time out to indulge you in your little whims and whines, then just maybe they like you more than they'd like to admit too.

one more year

Friday 13th marked the official day of yet another year older. Another year of new happenings, losses, triumphs, all of them lasting memories. Be they good or bad, i'm thankful that now i have them to add to the collection i already have in my head. I think the most precious thing we have, that belongs to us alone, are our memories. I will never forget the way an old song playing on the ferry made me go back to 13 years ago, dancing between to parents and to this exact same song. Or the way my first puppy felt in my hands and the wetness of his nose when i gently kissed him. Or the first time i tried vodka and thought it tasted like puke. Or the very first time when someone in primary school told me that he liked me.

Cheers. Here's to many more of these years to come.

It's beautiful how sometimes if we just stop and look around for a bit, we are able to forget, for the time being all the trouble that's plaguing our lives. Like when you look outside the window and see a full moon and you realise (although you've known this all your life) that no matter where you are on this earth, you look up and see the same moon. The same shape, the same colour, the same distance.
So the next time you are angry and feel like ripping your hair out or having a big cry, sit and look around you, after 10 minutes nothing seems so bad anymore, and then you can approach whatever you are facing with at least some sense of calm and decisiveness.