first day apart in 3 months. i'm glad he's coming home tomorrow.

i love grape flavoured gummies.
gobble..

Why is it that people keep banging their heads against the wall when we know that the banging will hurt, even if we clutch their head in pain and vow never to do it again? Yet as the pain subsides, we stand up and suddenly ready for round two. Maybe we do it in the hope that despite the hardness of the wall, we can somehow break through and see the person on the other side. But inevitability, we end up hurt and shattered during the process. If the walls don't break, if the person on the other side cannot see or worse doesn’t care, then it is high time that we stop, turn around and walk away.

How many people can tell you that they will always catch you when you fall, anytime, anywhere. And how many people actually mean it. Who will take all of your shit when you are depressed. And who will force the reason behind your bad mood from your mouth no matter how hard you resist.

I am grateful for your persistence, patience and tolerance. You are like no other.

tick tock

as the time draws nearer and nearer, i am filled with sadness and trepidation. will i be strong or will i breakdown i have no idea, i guess i'll find out when the time comes. for the moment, i wish that there is 48 and not 24 hours in a day to spend with the people i like the most.

Kuala Lumpur

When you have a problem and that problem is one of a repetative nature, only 2 things may enable you to temporarily forget:
1) fun with friends
2) loads of work
Number 1 was exactly what I had last week, frolicking around KL with dear "sharon" and joshi. After nearly a year of being apart, I was overjoyed to realise that nothing has changed between us. Sure we've all grown, matured and made other friends along the way, but somehow, we've grown together despite being geographically challenged. Our individual friends have also become a part of each other's lives. Our connection, adoration and loyalty have remained, and I know that this is something very special, not to be had every day. So, being engulfed by their love for 1 whole week was the best medicine i could have wished for. KL was beautiful because they made it so.
Thank you guys, you mean a whole lotta things to me.
Sniff sniff... bite...

i think sometimes we would all like to delude ourselves into thinking that we can less about a person than we actually do for fear of the consequence of knowing just how much they affect you. but if they are the first person you turn to when you are scared and unsure, if they are the person you turn to when you need support, if only they can make you smile and laugh when you are feeling down, when their attempt to cheer you up were lame and yet you still feel 100% times better, when one word of advice and or chiding from them gives you the energy to go on then it's probably safe to say that you like them more than you would like to admit. when you do find that person, don't be afraid to latch onto them like a rock. because the support and strength you get from them is worth the fear. and if they take the time out to indulge you in your little whims and whines, then just maybe they like you more than they'd like to admit too.