The reassuring email

It is a sad day when even your closest friends gets sick of your rantings. After days of circling around in the same place, 5 nervous breakdowns and 2 little cries.... it all comes down to just one thing. An email from Linklaters telling me that they haven't even started screening...

Maybe psychic Louise is right... 10-14 days until a fantastic career opportunity. A trip to Spellbox on 21/04/05, 10 days means 01/05/05, 14 days = 05/05/05 which means next week? If the timing is correct and Lena is right in that screening hasn't even started yet... then maybe just maybe Madame Louise is really... MADAME LOUISE!!! and not some con artist like a certain "Ann" who happens to have told Joshi and I the same thing... "i see a big celebration in the near future"..... damnit that's 40 bucks down the drain for a load of bullshit that I could've told myself...

It's written in the stars

If we all had just one path in life that we should take, then I am not sure if I've missed a turn somewhere. Being a last year student looking for a job really leaves a feeling remorse and regret on your tongue. Knowing that you've spent the last 4 years living in a daze, and now you're going to pay for it by worrying about applications, failed marks and the prospect of a non-existent job makes you, well basically hate yourself.

There are so many times i would change if i just had the power to turn back the clock. No petty fights, no saying things you come to regret later on, no screwing around with school work, no forging of spastic relationships.

can you really look forward to a successful future with a string of failures behind you?

evidently yes, thanks to josh - my little support center. Today we confirm the saying: if you want something badly enough, you will get it. But only if you want it bad enough.
Yes josh, i want it very very badly....here's hoping to a certain position at a certain firm and a night of lobster sashimi and a second course of lobster with ginger and shallot.